Imagining Homelessness

When I set out to write a song for ORR’s Homes Campaign this year, I wasn’t sure where to begin. Home means so many different things to so many different people. So I decided I would not write about home, but homelessness, in light of the fact that this was the issue our campaign was addressing

Our Family in New Orleans
Photo by Kate Albers

I wanted my lyrics to reflect the heart and struggle of a homeless person and to speak a message of love and hope to anyone who heard it. I thought about the experiences I had had with homeless people. There was a memory of visiting a shelter with my family for Christmas one year. We made and packaged a lot of cookies to distribute and sang a number of songs. I was in junior high at the time and my siblings were even younger.We lived in New Orleans at the time. I never did forget that experience - the eyes and the gratitude of those people. I regret that I have not done it since. Within a few months or years of that experience, my brother and I were with my father once when he bought a meal for a homeless man. As I recall, it was in a lower income part of downtown. We stopped inside of a Chinese restaurant for his meal. Then my dad sat with him as he ate and we listened to part of his story. I can’t say I recall the story, but I do remember the experience and the large red eyes and worn black hat of that man. There was the memory of spending time with children in the 9th ward on Saturday mornings through a problem at our church called the Sonshine Ministry. They were not exactly homeless but my memory associates them as somewhere close to that. We would play with them, have a brief sort of Bible lesson with them, and leave them with sack lunches. They were beautiful children leading very hard loves from a terribly early start. I can remember them laughing and running with us  and later scrambling in line for a second sack lunch. Last, but not least, soon after I had first moved to Texas my family got involved with group called feed one. Once or twice a month we’d buy and prep hotdogs, chips, and soda cans to distribute to the homeless in downtown, Dallas. The memory of doing that stands out in my mind because the reality of the their situation seemed so undeniable as we handed them their food out there on the streets, in the cold, in the middle of the night. We kept it up for  a while and as we got “busy” we stopped.

Looking back on those memories I realized that in a word, I might consider the homeless to be forgotten. Those of us with homes can so easily ignore them,  judge them, or in the best case, do some kind deed for them and then return to our cozy homes without ever giving them a second thought.

 Weingart, Homeless

Some people perceive that the homeless are and remain homeless because they fail to make the effort to change their situation, the assumption being that the homeless are to blame for their living situation. That may or may not be true in some cases, but certainly not every one. The stories of the men, women, boys, and girls who live without homes are more intricate than one might imagine. Would you believe that some of the those people you see out on the streets are doctors and lawyers?.. Of course before you could believe that you would have to give it thought. And so many of us fail to do so, which is scarcely better than the people who walk by and offer only judgement.

Isaiah 58: 6-8

Who on earth looks out for those who can’t look out for themselves? Who looks at the homeless and offers the promise of a home and unconditional love? Only God, in his good time. That thought is spring from which I wrote the song which is in fact the prayer I imagine I would pray if someday I found myself homeless. That prayer takes into consideration some of God’s promises and the basic needs of man, the struggles of those who do what they can to turn things around and  as well as our desire to be understood at the very least and loved at best.

I drew not only from the memories of those experiences I had of interactions with the homeless, but from my own experiences where I struggled for things I needed, felt judged for situations that I could not change despite my best efforts, and misunderstood or even unloved. The song became very personal for me and I hope that all who hear it are able to relate in some way. Furthermore, I hope, particular for the purpose of this album that it moves listeners to action - that is to do what they can to help someone in need or change someone’s heart or mind about the homeless.

 

Big, small, BIGGER: A bit of Introspection - or something

Alice In Wonderland

I think we all have a general understanding we share of the terms “big” and “small”. Still somehow, I find the terms to be so relative and subjective, as is the case with just about everything, I guess. A big deal for you may be small beans for me, but that doesn't make it any less than what it is to you. Enough riddles and rhymes - what I want to talk about is not big or small, but bigger (and not even smaller).

Sometimes I feel like I sit back and watch everyone around me doing things so much bigger than that which I am. I standby, watch, even support, and silently kick myself for not having been further along in life. Then I remember that while there are many things I could have done differently to have been closer to where it is I want to be, there are also many obstacles and setbacks that I have overcome and deal with still. Surely if God has allowed for all this, when my time comes it will be that much sweeter and purer, supposing that I am in fact going through the refiner’s fire.

All the World’s a Stage  

They say there are no small parts, only small actors. They also say, or rather Shakespeare said, that all the world is a stage. Do these thoughts coincide? If so, I will not be counted as a small actor, no matter how very small my part seems. As I consider and develop who I am and who I would like to be, I try to play my part with grace and meaning that reaches past myself and into that audience referred to as the world. I have loved and pursued communication as a means to do so, building my potential for influence, with a hope not for selfish desires, but selfless needs beyond my own.

In and of myself I have found that to be a trying pursuit with progress that comes in small and seemingly insignificant doses. The impact I make seems so small it seems imperceptible. So I cling to the hope that every cliche about small change making a big difference is true - or at least some of them. Still I feel so small and insufficient.

OneReasonRecordings

So now I come to the notion of “bigger” (finally). Since February of this year I have had a chance to be a part of something bigger in a way that feels impactful to me. I have worked as a campus representative for an organization called OneReasonRecordings. The organization is a non-profit organization that raises funds for social justice issues around the world through music. This year the social justice issue that we are tackling is Homelessness. Through our Homes Campaign, we hope to raise $3,200 to provide a family in need with a new, safe and secure house with sanitation. Additionally we are raising awareness of the issue and working on a related project, a nationwide clothing drive, which I might dare to declare has even gone global. So far we have raised nearly $800 toward our $3200 goal and donated more than 2547 articles of clothing from 54 cities And 10 countries. Sunday evening  we hit a high point in our campaign process as we released this year’s campaign album, “Foundations”. The moment was a proud one for me not just as a member of the organization, but as a contributing artist to the album. I downloaded the album the moment I had a chance and listened to the other 10 artists, whom I had been so curious to hear. After doing so, I felt small again, for just a moment, and marveled at how my song submission could have been chosen to be among these artists who were far more talented than me.

2 Corinthians 12:9

When I shared that sentiment with my friend Paul, he told me “God will continue to put you into situations like this. Where you feel inadequate. That is where He will get the most glory.”

What a beautiful reminder of how small I am indeed and how much bigger that which I am a part of really is.

I've turned that thought over in my head again and again and found without surprise that it applies to every situation in my life. Being a part of ORR’s team and watching the progress we make as we take part in a goal bigger than we are is an experience that I am so grateful to be a part of. Being a part of God’s plan for His glory even with my shortcomings is no small ordeal at all and it’s a privilege I forget to be aware of. I am glad to have been reminded.

In time I believe that my reach, rather than my “role” will be greater, such that I make impactful differences where they are needed and ultimately bring Him glory.